Hope is not lost, faith has not failed – Your Shepherd is here to rescue and set your feet back on a sure path. You simply must let Him in, not to where you pretend to be, but where you really are – right now, today.
I will say, for me in those years of dabbling with Pornography, I “catfished” myself. I was afraid to face my own truths of letting people know this was my sin and my pain. So I catered to porn instead of cultivating my relationship with Jesus
Sister, I’m here to tell you that you are not alone. I feel you, I too have felt like this. It was not until One day I decided to call it in early and go upstairs when I heard my then 3yr old say “Daddy, Mommy just needs to take a nap and then she’ll feel better!” as much as it broke my heart to hear her say that, it was the truth. I needed to sleep! I needed to refresh so that I may fulfill my wife/motherly duties with a joyful heart.
You can’t tell me that God won’t do it. He will do it, exceedingly, and abundantly, above all things. He will supply you with what you need when you need it.